Seriously?

Am I serious about my plans?  Hell yes!

Am I doing everything possible to get where I want to go? Hell no! I could do so much more.

WHAT is holding me back??? Why do I keep bingeing on stupid shit and then end up feeling like a failure?

I KNOW what I need to do, I need to stop my self sabotaging behaviour and get on with it. I need to finish what I started with my weight loss. I got halfway there, I know its possible. FFS, its only 10kg. It is only food after all. WHY is this so difficult? Am I dense? Clearly I am.

The funny this is that my motivation is weight loss so I can run faster/easier. I think about that every time I run or exercise. Then I get home and gorge myself for two reasons - I am really hungry after my run and just for the hell of it, because I can. How is that for stupid?

It is back to the drawing board for me - planning, planning, planning. Keeping it simple. I don't need a gourmet meal every time. Cereal and skim milk, soup, steak or chicken and vegetables, etc will do me just fine. I need to cut back on my salt intake too.

WHAT is stopping me from losing weight? Not being able to eat what I want when I want? It may be a control thing, who knows.

I know the positives outweigh the negatives, by far. I also know I can do this. Good nutrition and weight loss will improve my health (and running times).

10km, then Half Marathon

I have just registered for the Launceston 10km on 17 June and also the Melbourne Half Marathon on 13 October. The grand plan beyond that is the Gold Coast Marathon mid 2013. I think it is all very realistic and doable, provided there are limited injury lay-offs!

I purchased new runners, had pressure point massage and visited a podiatrist to get my achilles tendonitis sorted. It seem to have worked, the pain has decreased dramatically. I am doing my physio exercises and stretching after every run. I should probably do it in between too, but I'm not!

My training schedule for the next 5 weeks or so looks like this:

Monday - 6am Spin/boxing / 4pm PT weights
Tuesday - 6am Pump class
Wednesday - 6am run 6-7km / 4pm PT weights
Thursday - 6am swim
Friday - 6am Running group/6-7km run intervals
Saturday - 7am easy walk
Sunday - 7am long run 10-12km

My km's will ramp up the week after the Launceston 10km in training for the half marathon. I have a great on-line training plan through Asics I will follow.

Eating is a work in progress :)

Cheers, Mons XX