Limbo, limbo

In no man's land at the moment. Waiting for 12wbt to start, slowly completing my tasks, eating OK but not fantastic, planning a little. I have been slipping in a few wines along the way as well as a few little treats. I know that is not ideal.

Changing the mindset to occasional treats rather than having any food whenever I feel like will be hard. Perhaps changing my perception of what a treat is? One glass of wine, once a week or a small dessert with dinner once a week. That is all I need after all, isn't it?

Losing weight has not been more important than food, obviously. It is important, but not MORE important than food. That sounds crazy when I type it out! ***scratches and shakes head***

Mons x


 

Getting organised

Slowly getting there, but I have been no angel. I KNOW organisation is the key to my success here.
I need to complete my 12WBT goal setting task and begin the kitchen makeover. I really want to spend the time on meaningful goals.

My kitchen is respectable. We try to go with as few additives as possible (that is another post for another day!) in our house, so as a result I make a lot of things from scratch. My problem, as I have said before, is portion control - wine and cheese don't help either!

I have a great diary and a bit of time tonight. Need to get my ass into gear...

Mons x

12WBT signed up!

Signed up for the Michelle Bridges 12 Week Body Transformation! I am excited. Had a little dabble in the forums and it is comforting to know you are not alone in your weight and mindset issues.

I have decided to follow Mindset Lessons in the forums and already lots of comments resonate with me and my own struggles. As a great procrastinator, here I was thinking that I can't wait to get started. The new mindset for me today is why no just do it now, why wait until 12 August? A head start would be smashing. I haven't told anyone yet, just want to get myself organised first. By the way there was a good forum post on keeping it a secret with lots of great comments. Not sure how I will roll with that....

So, I am planning meals for next week using some of the recipes on the 12wbt blog, making small changes, continuing with my exercise and ramping it up.

There is still the good Mons and the bad Mons battling it out on each shoulder when I do come across food I don't really need to eat - for example when I am bored or home alone. Got to go and deal with that...

Mons xx

New blog = new me???

It is only the bare bones so far! I was going to do another, but it was too hard. So I decided to cut the guts out of this one and keep going.

My blog has changed because my focus has changed. I have realised I have issues with food, namely emotional and sneak eating. I need to get it "out there", write about it. Trying to discover why I do it. So many years of ignorance and denial holding me back.

On the surface, I eat well. However, I eat too much and I often like to eat alone. Particularly the stuff I shouldn't eat. I am NOT talking McDonalds, deep fried food, chips (well, sometimes!) or lollies. I mean nachos, potatoes with sour cream and butter, toast with lashings of butter and my all time favourite biscuits. Sometimes anything I can get my hands on.

The one plus here is that I enjoy exercise. The problem is the more I exercise, the more I think I can eat. Here I am thinking that I can out-exercise the excessive amount of calories I am consuming. It may be because of exercise that I am overweight and not obese. However, the cold, early mornings sweating it out are not giving me anything to show for it. Enough is enough. I want my hard work to show, I want to be lean, fit and strong.

Change is needed now. I am an adult and I need to take control of my actions and change my relationship with food. So, here goes...