Devonport run and clean teeth

I forgot to mention my Run Devonport 10km effort yesterday. I clocked in at 59.15. Really disappointing since I was hoping for sub 57. There were a few factors I guess - the sun, it was quite warm on the road at 11am. I am used to running at 6-7am, so that was a bit of a shock to the system. I also went out too fast. My first 2 km was sub 4.8 (really fast for me), but I was feeling good at the time so I went with it. When I got to 8km I was spent, coupled with the heat, it was a disaster finish.

The wedding I had the night before probably didn't help either, damn you Jansz. Lots of excuses, I know. At the end of the day, I am racing against myself. I know I can do better. I can push myself  more. My overeating over the last few weeks has not helped. I know there is a correlation between BMI and running times. The more weight I lose (and fitter I get) the better my times will be, so simple.

I have the Run for the Kids on 1st April in Melbourne with my two sisters. It is 14.38km, I am aiming for a sub 1.30, realistic I think given the civilised 9:15am start time. My preparation has been solid, it is absolutely achievable. I just have to nail the nutrition over the next two weeks.

On another note, I felt like eating more after dinner tonight, nothing in particular, just something (snap goes the rubber band). I cleaned my teeth instead! I feel hungry now, but soda water will have to do. I will probably dream about breakfast. I have weights PT at 6am tomorrow, hope I get through without fainting from hunger. That would be embarrasing!

Night, Mons XX

Starting fresh on a Monday!

I have read lots of inspiring stuff over the weekend to get back on track - blogs, inspirational quotes, inspirational books (Michelle Bridges particularly!), Runners World magazine etc etc.

I have also talked to my husband about my inability to control my eating and why I do it, because it really is stupid. He suggested I purchase the book - The Happiness Trap. I bought it yesterday and intend to read it from tonight - will blog my findings.

I am also wearing a red rubber band on my wrist (another husband idea!). Each time I contemplate eating something I don't need or really shouldn't eat , I pull it back as a reminder to be mindful. Don't judge me, I am willing to try anything at this stage!

The day has started off well (I know it is only 10am!) I am determined. I CAN DO THIS!

Mons XX

I think I can, I think I can...

Slowly, slowly my brain is getting back into gear, back in the game. My second last red flag was last night and I feel shite for it (food and beverage related). It doesn't make me feel good at all to overeat and drink, then bust my ass running/gym/pt.

I am sitting here planning my next move. I have cleaned out the fridge (again), no chocolates, biscuits or wine in there now. It is actually quite empty. I need to plan (tonight) and then shop. My last red flag is Saturday night (a wedding) but I know I will be OK because I have the 10km Run Devonport the next morning and I am going for a 10km PB (sub 55).

I have this week and next week sorted for my exercise already. I am pushing myself in the exercise department, I can do it in the food department too!

I MUST SAY NO TO UNNECESSARY FOOD (my time starts now....)

Mons XX

Avoidance (part 2)

I am trying not to avoid this blog and hence my obligations to myself to keep going and get rid of those pesky 10kg. I sat down last night to plan my meals again. I hit two red flags next week, gave up and went to bed.

Fresh again this morning, I figured looking at some positives and negatives (lets call them areas for improvement) may help...

So the positives are:
I ran 5km this morning, 4km Wednesday and 10km last Sunday (12km planned for this Sunday)
My times are getting better (slightly)
I have had two, one hour weight/core training sessions with a PT and booked in another 8 sessions over the next 8 weeks.
I have progressively bettered my times over my 4 week cardio challenge (group training Mondays)
My injuries seem to have settled down
I have not put on any weight (thats a positive isn't it???)
I really want to do this

Areas for improvement are:
Eating too much (usually of a good thing)
Wine has crept in again, 5 glasses since last Friday
My eating has still been bordering on crapola - cheese, chocolate and biscuits are NOT my friends!
Something is stopping me from my own self control

OK, planning is probably going to get me back on track. I will revisit my diary and lock in good choices...today. I will shop accordingly...tomorrow.

I know I can do it, I have done it before.

Cheers, Mons XX

Avoidance

You may notice that when I go blog AWOL, I am avoiding for a reason. I have not yet got back on the 12wbt track. I went AWOL at the end of week 2. I have (as always) continued to exercise, but my eating is WAAYY off.

I was asking myself why just last night. I really am not sure. Perhaps I am in a comfortable place. I am relatively fit, I have lost a bit of weight (need another 10 big ones gone really), I am JUST in my healthy BMI. I have become ...well I am not sure that complacent is the word, but something like that.

com·pla·cent  adj.

1. Contented to a fault; self-satisfied and unconcerned: (He had become complacent after years of success.)

 

My weight has increased slightly, less than a kg. I need to do some thing, but I am not sure where to go from here...I can't get that focus....